February 2012
15 posts
God
I love Him
I believe in who He is
I believe in a message of peace
and love that He has for all people
I do not believe
in using His name for hate
Or for throwing about
claiming a whole group of people
are just the same
because they love the Lord
and believe in His grace
I will not stand for
discrimination
or unjustified cruelty towards
anyone
A Christian
or a gay man
Or a...
In Love
Slow down and
look me in the eye
and tell me you don’t
love me
I need this
I need space and time and
everything that a hate
confession
will give me
I know you love me
so please just say
you don’t because
I really need to leave
because you love me
but I am
in love with you
Stranger
You’ve changed
This skin
This hair
This smile
Is not yours
You don’t even give
Me the time of day
You don’t even listen
Anymore
You’ve changed a lot
In the worst ways
And the worst is that
You’re me
I Grow Stronger
I see you out there
living life slowly
And I think I’m okay
I think I’m fine
and then I’m not
Then you smile at me
and hug me
because we’re friends
And I don’t know what to do
because I want to be
so much more to you
I know it sounds crazy
It’s ridiculous
but I can’t move on
I try and try
I grow stronger every day
but then one smile
one...
I Tell Her Everyday
She’s so beautiful
Her hair
Her eyes
Her body
I love it
I love her
And the best part
of all of this beauty
I get to tell her
Every day
how much she means
to me
Love Puzzle
I apologized for not
being good enough
for you
but You said that
wasn’t it at all
You said I was
not right
Our pieces didn’t fit
But I feel my edge
and I see yours
and I think they fit
perfectly
Maybe you need
a new perspective
but I see the sloppily shoved
piece you have now
all broken and cracked
And I wish you would try
to place my side
in yours so you could...
Anchor
You grab my hand
and squeeze
I can feel the bones
crack
even though I know
they can’t
You say I am
your anchor
You say
you need me
I know I am a
quick fix for now
Nothing so serious
But I pretend
and squeeze back
and whisper in your ear
and break a little
each time
Running like the Wind
You used to whisper
words to me late
at night when you
thought I was sleeping
Words about a love
I never thought you
could feel for me
I couldn’t handle love
not then when I was
so new to life and air
I couldn’t handle that
so I ran very fast
and I wish I didn’t
I long for those
whispers as I listen
to the wind
Hoping it will carry
your voice to me
again
Fixing Nothing
“When you feel
broken and lost,
I will fix you
I will be there,”
You whispered
before you left
Lies
that’s what broke me
Lies
won’t fix me too
Con Amor
You said
“I’m leaving”
You said
you needed space
You said
i needed time
You said
it was with love
You said
it was kind
You said
a lot of things
You said
a lot of lies
Valentines
I made 5 valentines
but I only gave out 2
because the other 3
were for people
that didn’t care enough
about me
Empty Bus
There is an empty bus
waiting for you
to get on it
and this bus
only expects one passanger
it is waiting
all you have to do
is jump on
and go anywhere
away from here
Would you do it?
Would you leave me
behind?
Thread
There are all
these ties
from me
to you
pieces of thread
invisible to everyone
but we recognize them
in the ease with which
we speak to one another
and in the smiles
we throw
each other
It is no wonder
that so many
thin, fragile cords
connect us
because separate they are
weak
but together they
keep
us from falling
apart
Beauty
You are a beauty
And my body sings
When you walk in the room
I love you or better
Yet I love the idea
Of you
You are too beautiful
To everything to be
Mine
But I will dream and hope
That one day a beauty
Like you
Will love me
Too
January 2012
18 posts
Dancing
Flying away
From my mistakes
From my soul
It is my running
It is my swimming
It is my outlet
And that is enough
No one said
I was good
And no one
Has to
Bridges
You and I
Are the best of
Friends
We were made
For salt saker families
Purple crayons
And bridges with oranges
So let’s go
Right now
Out into the world
Release ourselves
Into the infinite
Universe
Half Filled
This glass
with your
Lipstick Stain
And my soul
as you walk
and the clouds
With a dark
Dangerous gleam
your suitcase
You left behind
All the things
i liked
our apartment
everything
Is only half
Filled
without you
In it
Whispers in the Wind
I hear your heart
It speaks to me
Of love
And kindness
Mostly things
I wish your mouth
Would say
But I stand by
I am your friend
Desperatley pining
For lover
And it kills me
That I’m not enough
Problems
Everyone around me
has these problems
these vapors that are
vain and fleeting
he doesn’t love me
i am so alone
i just want to be happy
I care
I swear, but
you need to grow up
and learn that
life is precious
that people are way
worse off than this
and even though that
doesn’t mean you don’t
have problems
stop letting them consume you
my dad lost his job
one...
Listen to the Words I Can't Say but Need to
I’m sorry I think
I’m in love with you
I’m mostly sorry
You aren’t in love
With me too
Mostly because I love
You
Okay that is it
Really sorry
Love you
Loyola Chicago
I have been
accepted
To my First
Choice
and I don’t know
how to feel
except excited
This is my dream
Chicago
Psych
Everything is
Happening
And I couldn’t
be Happier
Fly Away From Sentences
look me
in the
Eye
I am not
here
I am not
Me
Sorry if
that makes you
sad
But you never
knew me
Because I break
things in my
sleep
And I am too
calm to write
coherent sentences
Actually don’t
ever look at my
Eyes
because then you’ll
See
that you don’t like
Me
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I'm Sorry
My tears
My wrists
they don’t matter
As my friends
crumble to Peices
I have to pick them up
I have to learn
new Puzzles
I was always
bad at puzzles
But I’m okay
It’s my Job to be
I’m sorry
You feel that way
Nightlife
You are too young
You have heard this
all your life
and so when the
opportunity rises
for you to show off
and be an adult
You jump on it
And on the first guy
willing to sneak you in
the Club
Because You are
old enough
To open your legs
Even if you’re
too young
to know that
Heartbreak
is imminent
If I Were A Mockingbird
I would fly
far away from here
But I’m not
and so I stayed
maybe I was
Caught
maybe I was
Caged
Either Way
I can’t leave
as it kills me
to Stay
Suffocating Flashes
One forgets
how precious
the inhale
the exhale
truly is
One forgets
that they should
cherish their breath
One forgets
the importance
of life
until they are faced
with death
Coughing
Hacking away
into a napkin
on the street
with a cart
you are alone
and no one cares
no one offers
help assistance
nothing
we are all
horrible people
we are just used
to hearing
the coughing
and it’s so sad
Go Forth
Vile and wretched
Creatures
Sprung from their
Dark, Dank cages
They roam and lurk
Waiting for me
I hear them
But these creatures
Are only in
My Veins
These awful, terrible villains
Are only for my ears
They were made for me
And tonight
They were told to
Go
Forth
Dreams
I don’t love you
Because of your
Beautiful face
Or even your
Beautiful soul
I love you because
You have dreams
In this desolate landscape
You hope for a better
Tomorrow
How could love
Not grow, when
Your dreams
Yearn for my hand
And my heart?
Demons
They are hidden
right behind my eyes
in these lines
under my skin
searing my veins
My demons
are hidden right there
because I like
to keep some things
to myself
But also because
they aren’t to
Hard
to find if you’re
Willing
so peel back my skin
look through my eyes
read deeply into my words
and see all
That I have
Haunting me
2012
I will change
I have no choice
I will leave home
My family
My friends
Will be distant
I will be new
Everything
Will be new
I will learn if I was
Good enough
I will have to
Grow up
I will leave
I will learn
I will love
And it’s only been
A day
December 2011
14 posts
"They were careless people Tom and Daisy..."
How can you breathe
with blood on your hands
How can you
live
when you know
he is not
and he loved you
and she loved you
this blood is too
thick to wash
away
How can you
just destroy lives
and move on
Money doesn’t fix everything
Money doesn’t bring back
those you killed
and You killed them
How could you be so
Careless
Bandage Kisses
if you kissed me
just a little
fast and blind and
wonderful
than maybe all
this heartbreak
all this pain
you feel
would go away
I just want to make
it better
so kiss me
fast and sloppy and
wet
It doesn’t heal
much, but it let’s
you forget for
a Bit
Heartbreak through Fireflies
I caught all these
Fireflies
In a jar one day
There was at least
A thousand
All for you
All you said
“You have to let
Them go, you know”
My heart
Shattered
And it does
Shatter
I’m sorry
Fireflies
Weren’t bright enough
To light your heart
I’m sorry
I wasn’t good
Enough to do
Better
Place Your Hand In Mine
Let’s go
running
with no particular
destination
I want to drive
in your truck
and blast your
kind of music
and not care
about anything
if you place
your hand
in mine
I promise
we will have
the time of
our lives
I Feel Like I Can Fly When I'm Next To You
I floated
up and up and up
on vapors and dreams
and one word
and one letter
brought me back down
rejection
stings worse
when at first
you thought
you could fly
Hopeless Place
There is nothing
Green
In the land
it is all brown and
black and grey
nothing Alive
Except you and I
and we
Just barely breath
wondering how
we will survive
putting faith in
our love
In this desolate
Hopeless place
Love is all we
have to live on
Anyway
The Condition of My Heart
Shattered
Because of you
but that’s okay
It’s not your
Fault
(even though
it is)
Strangers Met Through Imminent Will
I wish I was
stronger for you
She whispered words
of longing to me
words I could not
Fathom
and then she was
gone like a snow flake
melted into my sleeve
Different for a moment
and then utterly
Gone
That’s okay
God has a Will
and if it is meant to be
then we will find each other
as strangers
Again
blogsecret:
I hate how I have to pretend I hate you.
I hate how I have to Pretend to Hate you I want to say Hello to you Now After hearts were Broken And mended Again I hate pretending When pretending Is what made me Pretend To hate you I just want to Stop pretending And like you Again
Lovely, You're Always Lovely
I’m just not that
pretty
In general
about everything
like usually
You get a
Pretty heart
or a
Pretty face
but me
I am cruel
and ugly
I got nothing
And nothing’s
got me
How many lies
can I tell
before I’m popular
I don’t want
to be the person
to find out
The Awakening
Horrible peice
of fiction
for my immature tastes
I guess
but the imagery
the whole point
is just hard to
Deal With
it is mostly
Suffocated
and stilted
Things are not
explained
and the awakening
is climaxed
with the Death
of the awakened
I was disappointed
to say the least
in-hystero:
I have eaten the plums that were in the icebox
and which you were probably saving for breakfast
Forgive me they were delicious so sweet and so cold
-William Carlos Williams
One of my favorites :) love the imagery and the simplicity
Whisper in my ear words i cant hear
whisper in my ear
words i cant hear
about love and loss
all at what cost
i am deaf and dumb
willingly numb
I am so sorry
I can’t worry
You say in my ear
Words I musn’t hear
November 2011
28 posts
Tired of Everything
I am just very
Tired
Of your smile
Being directed
Everywhere, but
At me
I am tired
Of never
Winning
Of never
Being
Your everything
I am just
Too tired
I’m sorry
Moving
“I am moving,
to place where
I can be free
not suffocated by
Society.
I am moving,
to place where
I can run
as fast as I can
and still not
Breathe.
I am moving,
continuously
and now it is
away
from you.
I am moving,”
And What was I to
say in response
As you began walking
East